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Jade Mckillop

April Jogging Challenge

Help Jade raise 175!

I’ve committed to the April Jogging Challenge for families facing baby loss

I’ve committed to the April Jogging Challenge for every much-loved baby sadly not here today.

Sands ensure that everyone affected by the loss of a baby gets the support they need and deserve when facing the toughest of times. They campaign for change, provide training for midwives and healthcare professionals, and support research so that fewer babies die and so that less families experience the tragedy of losing their baby. Anything you are able to donate means so much.

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I don’t know, miscarriage sucks

Thursday 12th Mar
Miscarriages fucking suck ok, for everyone involved, mums, dads, other siblings and so on. I’ve survived 4 now and no, it does not get easier because “you’ve gone through it before” each of them have been such different experiences and each of them have been fucking traumatic, something I would never wish on another human being. I’m barely existing since my last loss, I’m a shell
Of the woman I was and I fucking know it, but I can’t seem to get my shit together this time, it’s like enough is enough now and I’m tired. I can’t seem to find a single person who understands. 
And because of the amount of losses I’ve had they did a genealogy test on my last, and it came back with a T21 gene (maybe because I’m older now) I don’t know, but I feel like this loss has been the hardest to come to
Terms with and maybe it’s because it’s been so drawn out and it’s still not over, or maybe it’s because I’ve absolutely zero support. In one mind I have an answer as to why it happened and I guess you can say ‘natures way’  or ‘closure’ either way it’s not easier. I left a job I loved because I don’t feel well enough, I’m struggling to eat and sleep and be a good mother to my surviving children. Everything is just fucking hard and I still can’t see the end, that terrifies me. I’m not ok and I know it, and my children know it. I feel so alone 

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Jade Mckillop