Rhiana Mcneish

Walking in memory of baby Teddy 🦋🩵

I’ve committed to walking 100K in September for every much-loved baby sadly not here today. 

Taking part in this holds a very close place in my heart 💛 After my first pregnancy back in September 2024 ending in a missed miscarriage at 15 weeks . This was something I had never even heard of, it was so hard trying to understand why my body had let me down,why my baby had gone but my body still was making me believe they was there? I couldn’t make any sense of it but after two surgeries and sometime to process what we had been through we were on to our next Journey.

 I then fall pregnant with my son Teddy just 3 months later we thought we had our rainbow baby coming 🌈 and this time everything was so different But unfortunately at 18+3 weeks my water started to leak they call this premature rupture of membranes again this was something I had never heard of before . 

After spending a week in hospital seeing different doctors/ consultants , many scans, and praying for a miracle I delivered our beautiful baby boy Teddy Suel sleeping 😭🩵 my son was the most precious , perfect little boy I’ve ever seen 🥺 my whole pregnancy had been amazing full of anxiety that I held from my previous pregnancy but no complications up until two weeks Prior to my waters going I had started spotting and I knew then something was wrong. I visited the hospital multiple times, had scans and was told it was normal and my son was fine but after going back forth to the hospital I then was hit with my worse nightmare I never thought the pain could get worse after my miscarriage but losing my son has been the hardest most heartbreaking journey ive ever been on. Without him Part of me now will forever be missing💙

No mother/family should ever have to experience this pain , no one can ever prepare you for having to plan a funeral for your child or this kind of heartbreak. Giving birth to my son in room full of emptiness, waiting for a cry I’ll never get to hear ! leaving the hospital knowing your not coming home with us 💔

We had so much planned for your our boy the future seemed so much brighter with the thought of you in it but we now do this for you we carry you name and your story and I share my journey to help other women and families that are experiencing this pain your not alone ❤️

Forever mummy’s baby , I love you son and miss you more than any words on this earth could ever describe🤍

27/04/2025- 7:42pm Teddy Suel Howes 🪽🦋🩵