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Helen Gunderson

Run 50k in September 2025

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I’m running 50k in September for families facing baby loss

I’ve committed to running 50k in September for a very much-loved baby sadly not here today but forever in my heart.

Sands ensure that everyone affected by the loss of a baby gets the support they need and deserve when facing the toughest of times. They campaign for change, provide training for midwives and healthcare professionals, and support research so that fewer babies die and so that less families experience the tragedy of losing their baby. Anything you are able to donate means so much.

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Tuesday 26th Aug
A year and a half ago I would have told you it was nothing, that everything was okay and that it was just a ‘blip’.  Losing my baby at 4 months pregnant felt embarrassing and shameful in February last year. It felt like my body had failed me, that I had failed my then partner and that life just needed to continue in order for me to prove myself worthy again. I kept it all in, not telling a single soul… not my partner, mum or best friend. It was a stoney silence of loss, just sat there at the back of my chest, ever present but always hidden. 

 A lot has happened since then and it has affected me in ways I didn’t even think possible. My life is a million miles away from the life I had when I got pregnant and from those dizzy, happy moments once I found out. No one tells you really how it feels to see those two blue lines… a future you never knew you would have flits before your eyes and extends beyond your own mortality. You start picturing the child, half you, half your partner and all of your best bits. Our baby would have been sensitive and kind, headstrong and talented. They would have been bright and brave, sometimes emotional and sometimes socially anxious. They would have liked music, and films and beers/wines with friends. They would have been beautiful and admired. Most of all, they would have been loved. Losing a baby whilst they are still inside of you, doesn’t mean they didn’t exist or weren’t real. Their legacy will continue and they will continue to be all of those things, just not here in this reality. I keep a stone with me all the time now, and it’s shiny and cool to the touch. Each time my fingers touch it, I think of my baby and smile.

 I have finally started to open up about what happened to me, it has felt like opening a bottle which had been leaking water for a while. Yes there is some left in there to share but a lot has already leaked into different parts of my life and being since it happened. Sometimes even now I want to close the bottle again, refill it back up with the story, the details, the tears…. But I know that will only leave me heavy again. Really the bottle has been my lifeline and will continue to be a symbol of how far I have come.

Miscarriage is something so many of us go through, yet it doesn’t make it easy or normal. It is a grief which isn’t always spoken and there have been times I have felt at the end of the line. Charities like sands are vital for anyone going through this and I want to help in any way I can. I also want to remember my baby and let them know that I will never forget them.

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Cheering leading every step of the way for such a valuable cause, impacting more than people will ever know xx

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