I’m walking 100K in March for families facing baby loss
I’ve committed to walking 100K in March for every much-loved baby sadly not here today.
Sands ensure that everyone affected by the loss of a baby gets the support they need and deserve when facing the toughest of times. They campaign for change, provide training for midwives and healthcare professionals, and support research so that fewer babies die and so that less families experience the tragedy of losing their baby. Anything you are able to donate means so much.
Thank you.
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Tuesday 24th Feb Heyyyyyyyyyy, YEAH YOu!I was blessed I found out i was pregnant.
My whole life was about to change for the better.
ONLY IF THAT WAS THE CASE..
I would complain daily I thought I was dying, I couldn’t go on anymore, daily hospital and gp appointments to find out nothing was wrong was all in my head then the someone actually believed me that I was dealing with a lot and it wasn’t in my head.
It went from bad to worse.
BOOOOOOM went from it’s all in your head, going for a scan to then getting put onto a ward to now being told I had pre-eclampsia, very dangerous for me and my baby I was bed bound had to have medication every 4 hours due to high blood pressure, blood thinning medication daily vomit, dizzy spells. Me and my baby was monitored also every 4 hours broken sleep.
I got told, baby’s not doing well, not growing how he should we need to get him out now.
Rushed to have a c section, then my life changed again,
They ripped him away from me to then be put into neuo, wasn’t aloud to touch / cuddle / kiss / breastfeed / change his nappy wasn’t aloud to stay with him at nights or hardly during the day.
Things changed I took charge when he went upstairs I got discharged and they wouldn’t let me stay with him. I said I am not leaving they gave me a room I did everything on my own day and night to the. Get discharged with me and him going home.
I had really bad postpartum depression.
This is where my story really start..
Since then I’ve been pregnant 6 times all between 4-7 weeks and then lost all pregnancies.
Had early scans for each pregnancy everything was going fine until it wasn’t.
All I kept getting told is. IM SORRY BUT THERES NO HEART BEAT, this broke me over and over again.
I would get told it’s my weight, I’m high risk etc.
I didn’t want to give up so I would go and test, scans gyne. Just to be told sorry we don’t have answer for you.
Everyone said just be blessed you have got one and cherish your boy. Which I was coming to terms with them BOOOOM. I found out I was pregnant again and I was completely shocked. At this point my head was like I can’t do this again, enough is enough of heart pain, my body has been through so much.
Then it hit me, I can’t get rid of this baby,
I went for a scan and ever week I went to see this little thing grow and grow, we hit the 7 weeks and everything was fine. I then got told because it’s gone passed the 7 weeks we won’t do another one untill12 weeks. I wasn’t happy with that as my time would normally be around this time frame, but I said okay cool.
I should have went with my gut and kept fighting it to make sure everything was going okay and more scans. YES it’s costing money for the NHS but I didn’t care.
At 12 weeks I went for the scan as I was getting pains, didn’t feel right and start to have a bleed.
Went to my appointment to be then told at EIGHT WEEKS baby’s heart stop beating. The baby is still there but it should pass. Which wasn’t the case 2 weeks later baby still hasn’t passed. I fainted in Nando’s and partly then passed. By the time I got home I had a massive infection, to a point I collapsed hit my head of my toilet, vomited everywhere, I was shaking and freezing. My son was so scared he then called the ambulance
I got admitted for 5 days had to have an emergency operation.
& still up until now I have just accepted that I will just have my little boy and to be blessed with that.
I’m hurting going though all of this and not knowing if I can ever have anymore kids, the trauma in getting pregnant and not knowing if it will go or have another miscarriage to now not wanted anymore kids but to say after your 6 one WE ARE NOW HAPPY TO DO MORE SCANS AND PUT YOU ON MEDICATION TO HELP THE BABY GROW.
Why has it taken this soooo long for you guys to be like this when now I’m not even trying to have a baby.
This is more of awareness.
If you feel it in your gut never give up and never think anything isnt possible.
Don’t get fibbed off,
Point of my story after the second or third one why wasn’t I monitored or out on special medication..
ITS TOO LATE NOW, I know they say never give up but I generally don’t have anymore energy or fright to even think about WHAT IFS..
This is for me to get fit but also do the walks for people to stand together,
Raise some money so we can invest in more equipment and time to people that generally want kids. Can’t have kids or even Lost kids.
We need to make a change!
Go smash it girl 💪🏼🥰