I’m walking 100K in March for families facing baby loss
I’ve committed to walking 100K in March for every much-loved baby sadly not here today.
Sands ensure that everyone affected by the loss of a baby gets the support they need and deserve when facing the toughest of times. They campaign for change, provide training for midwives and healthcare professionals, and support research so that fewer babies die and so that less families experience the tragedy of losing their baby. Anything you are able to donate means so much.
Thank you.
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My Story
Saturday 14th Feb Walking 100k steps for sands in March sounded like a great challenge until I realised my surgery is imminent with a likely date in March. Setting myself up for failure, most probably, still doing the challenge absolutely. (never been one to do things by halves)I've never shared my story because I don't believe anyone truly wants to hear how someone grieves for a life they'll never have.
With 6 miscarriages, a diagnosis of endometriosis and adenomyosis my chances of conceiving and carrying a baby to term has been described as "unlikely" by medical professionals.
18 months ago, my endo worsened causing indescribable pain, leading to multiple hospital admissions a difficult battle with my mental health and nearly loosing my job. I was faced with a reality I didn't want to be true. I struggled to accept the likelihood of a childless future, yet I was in agonising pain, still praying and hoping we would get our happy ever after. But I had to make the heartbreaking decision, for a better future. We stop. 12 years of trying, 12 years of appointments, 12 years of hope/dispair. 12 years of imagining, 12 years of dreaming of the life we hoped for. 12 years of questioning and self doubt. It had to stop. We needed to learn to accept the cards life dealt us and live because we've not been living for the last 12 years. We've lost ourselves, we've lost each other along the way and slowly are piecing ourselves back together.
Every thing happens for a reason and I pray to god that one day it will all make sense because right now it doesn't.
Coming to terms with not having children meant that I needed to see myself and my future in a different way. I had to let go of that part of what I wanted to be part of my life – being a mum.
The surgery is for my future. To give me a better quality of life, but you'll always be my favourite what if. Share
Thank you to my Sponsors
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Jason Lee Smitherman
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Sam
You're an incredible wonderful soul what a great cause. Go pow pow love you xxx
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J Hill
lots of love ❤️
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Siobhan Kearns
You should be so proud of everything you’ve done. Sending all the love and well wishes - I hope your surgery brings you the peace you need. Big hugs 🥰
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Ryan Day
Good luck :)
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Tom, Sassy And Frankie
GOOD LUCK!
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Hollie Smitherman
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Anonymous
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Nicola Wallis
Well done you 🫵🏻🙌🏻❤️
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Debbie Smitherman
Good luck hun xxxx
