Gemma Hawksley

Running for My Babies – and for Every Family Who Understands This Loss

Ten years ago, my life changed in ways I never expected.

I was pregnant with twins. I lost one baby at eight weeks, and then at nineteen weeks I lost my second baby, my son. My waters broke far too early, and I was faced with a devastating reality: he could not survive. I had to give birth knowing I would not be bringing him home. In a matter of days, everything I thought my future would look like disappeared.

Losing my baby was unbearable. At times, I genuinely didn’t know how I would survive it. Grief like that isn’t just sadness; it changes you at your core. It reshapes how you see the world, yourself, and time. Ten years on, I still think about who he would have been, what he would have looked like, what kind of person he might have grown into. That wondering never truly leaves.

What has helped is knowing that I am not alone. Charities like Sands exist for families who experience baby loss, offering support, understanding, and a voice when everything feels silent. They support parents through the darkest moments, and they work tirelessly to improve care, awareness, and research so that fewer families have to walk this path.

This year, I’m taking part in a 2km sponsored run for Sands. I’m running in memory of my babies, especially my son who was born on January 7th, and in solidarity with every parent who has experienced the heartbreak of loss. I’m running for those who feel unseen, unheard, and forever changed.

If you’re able to donate, no matter how small, it would mean more than I can put into words. You’re not just supporting a run, you’re helping Sands continue to be there for families when they need it most.

Thank you for reading, for remembering, and for supporting something so close to my heart