Claire Reynolds

2003

Saturday 3rd Jan In 2003 I gave birth to a baby boy on the 22nd April.  Just a couple of weeks previously I had gone for a routine check up to be told that there was an issue with my baby and he would not survive the pregnancy.  Advice from the consultant was to terminate this pregnancy as there was no chance I would carry to term. Being in my late 20’s at the time I was completely stunned, rather naively I thought once you were past the 12 week mark risk of miscarriage was low and everything would be fine. Stillbirth is something that people just didn't talk about.  Myself and my partner decided between us that as long as there was a heartbeat I would carry my boy.  In that time we went on family days out with me carrying him inside safe and warm.  I had instructions on what to do if anything changed. One day we sat on a bench eating ice cream enjoying the sunshine it  felt so perfect( a number of years later I would go to a psychic who would tell me that my little boy remembered that day) I knew when he passed I felt it deep within my body.  The midwifes who looked after us were amazing, our friends and families were there to support us and we couldn’t have got through without them.  We have since gone on to have 2 beautiful children who know all about their brother.  Losing my child changed me in a lot of ways, yes there was anger and bitterness but it made me an amazing if slightly overprotective mother.  We will always remember our angel Adam.  Share